That's a depressing thought, writing about depression. In recent conversation it has been discussed that depression may be because of what you think or perceive rather than what has happened to you. There are many events in life that you cannot control. You cannot control a bad boss. You cannot control the weather. You cannot control a spouse who abuses you. What will determine how you "feel" about various incidents is not due to the inherent badness of the situation, but how you react.
Example: if your boss fires you, and you think that it's because you've been a bad employee, then you are ripe for depression. You go home, mope, because you're BAD. You don't like yourself very much. You might then drink alcohol to feel better. Drinking alcohol makes you feel momentarily better, but then you can begin to feel guilty for drinking too much, and the cycle is off and running. Depression here I come.
On the other hand, if your boss fires you and you think, "that guy's an asshole and doesn't know what the fuck he's doing, it's certainly not me, I've given him the best years of my life!" You'll probably walk out of there angry and determined to find something even better. You may even be proud of yourself.
Simplistic, but it does make a lot of sense. I am beginning to think that I can "think" my way out of and away from depression.
2 comments:
Thats a big part of what I meant too. I think it has a lot to do with how you percieve things. Of course if you have a chemical problem you'll see things in a more pronounced manner.
In my case - my seritonin is all messed up and my adrenaline comes down at the wrong times - it makes things seem a whole lot worse and therefore feeds the depressions...
Jeanniegrrl, that is messed up. I really feel for you. And it's totally out of your control. Bummer!
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